这是前几天发生在我身上的故事。
那天晚上当我躺在医院重症监护室病床上的时侯，我早已是失去了知觉。我的冠心病发作，儿子不顾一切地及时把我送到了医院，赢得了宝贵的抢救时间，使我死里逃生。
在医院抢救了五天，自费花了十五万块钱，如果加上公费恐怕要接近三十万块钱，我这条生命的代价太大了。恐怕一般的普通老百姓是很难承受的。妻子和儿子毫不犹豫地接受了。
这场大病使我象做了恶梦一样，领略了医院现实的利益熏心和医生大爱无疆的品格。我真的感爱到了我病了，这个社会也病了……
一、现实的医疗体制，医院不是救死扶伤的组织，而完全是市场经济条件下等价交换的企业。
没钱别到医院来，拿不出钱就是等死。我被抬到急诊，押了五万块钱后，被推进了重症监护室，医生全力实施抢救。先是与家属签了病危通知书。然后就是开了一本书厚的单子，送到各个窗口。
半夜，医生出来通知家属再交五万元，不然就停止抢救，医院的制度非常明确，钱不到帐，药房的药拿不出来。
经过一夜的抢救我苏醒了，看到医生们疲劳的样子，我向他们微笑地点头示意。
Yesterday cocoon, tomorrow tomorrow. Life is like a play, a joke is like life. Tomorrow is not what we expect. A movie is most afraid of no audience, the most helpless is a unicorn drama. Holding back is always behind the scenes. What people want is the drama at the stage. Still remember Mr. Zhou Xingchi\\\\\\'s words about the chicken mother in the moonlight treasure box from Tang Monk and Monkey King at the beginning of his "Big Talk Journey to the West", "You want to? Monkey King, if you want, you can talk. You don\\\\\\'t say how do I know what you want? Although you look at me sincerely, you still want to tell me what you want. Do you really want it? " Yes, you don\\\\\\'t say how others know you want it. How can I feel your sincerity if you don\\\\\\'t look at me? Moreover, it is not related to relatives. Those who have experienced baptism of time are all fond of naive things. It\\\\\\'s like being happy and angry with children and wishful words on the surface, innocent and innocent as if it were the best praise in the world, making people happy. Since the people around you can be happy, and they will be satisfied, why do they still think of growing up and making gestures? If you want to say something, you will never say so. Do not blame yourself for what you want to do. If you want to show your talents, you will not be angry or angry. All expectations, in order to coexist with reality, can only be fostered in the heart, which becomes persistence. Once people have persistence, whether they are themselves or the people around them will be unhappy. Life is to be revealed on the surface. All you can see is your entire drama. Life is not meant to be what other people see as themselves. It\\\\\\'s just that behind the scenes and in front of the stage coincide. It\\\\\\'s as innocent as it is on the outside. It\\\\\\'s supposed to be what you really are. It was very pleasant to have a story of Mr. Yang Jiang. "We were so eager for the waves of fate that we finally realized that the most beautiful scenery in life was inner calm and calm. We had hoped so much for recognition from the outside world, but in the end we knew that the world was our own and had nothing to do with others. The world meaning here refers to the spiritual world, which is divorced from the real life, so people can not live only in their own world, so living is equivalent to death. Calm and calm is a height of life. It is perfect to keep a few hours of unhappiness every day. Because life is interlaced, others will intrude into your play, and you will live in others\\\\\\'play. Parents, friends, lovers, colleagues and strangers, they are the audience of your life, intertwined in your life, there will be joys and sorrows, there will be people, joys and sorrows, life. Just like how you deal with people, there will always be people who don\\\\\\'t like you. Just like how hard you try to do something, there will still be no gains. Just like how you love someone sadly, he will still be away from your life. You must learn to believe all the misfortunes and learn to recognize all the regrets. Believe in your immaturity, in your bad luck, in your own possession, in all your failures, in someone who doesn\\\\\\'t like you, in someone who doesn\\\\\\'t care about your feelings at all. Every grief in you will be the reason for every happiness in the future. When you pass through all the unbearable things in the world, you will be able to understand all the nobleness. But don\\\\\\'t be surprised, people come and go, some people never say goodbye, some people can\\\\\\'t say goodbye, but life, you have your play, he has his play, do not need persistence. As Haruki Murakami said, "my life is mine, and your life is yours. As long as you know what you\\\\\\'re looking for, you can live your life according to your own wishes, and no one else has anything to do with you." When all intentions are revealed in life, exposed in the daylight, no matter sad or happy, there is no regret in this life. When you walk with thorns, some people pity you; when you run with blood, some envy you; when you recover, others like you. Life goes into drama, and it rises and falls. Everything is just right. Just one day, when you walk in the crowd, your mind settles down for a moment and you find yourself alive. Live your life well, do not love happiness, do not retain sorrow. If you want to say something, you always say that you are strange to each other. You just want to leave a happy memory. When things are not perfect, you can find it in the song of the years.
Yesterday cocoon, tomorrow tomorrow. Life is like a play, a joke is like life. Tomorrow is not what we expect. A movie is most afraid of no audience, the most helpless is a unicorn drama. Holding back is always behind the scenes. What people want is the drama at the stage. Still remember Mr. Zhou Xingchi\\\\\\'s words about the chicken mother in the moonlight treasure box from Tang Monk and Monkey King at the beginning of his "Big Talk Journey to the West", "You want to? Monkey King, if you want, you can talk. You don\\\\\\'t say how do I know what you want? Although you look at me sincerely, you still want to tell me what you want. Do you really want it? " Yes, you don\\\\\\'t say how others know you want it. How can I feel your sincerity if you don\\\\\\'t look at me? Moreover, it is not related to relatives. Those who have experienced baptism of time are all fond of naive things. It\\\\\\'s like being happy and angry with children and wishful words on the surface, innocent and innocent as if it were the best praise in the world, making people happy. Since the people around you can be happy, and they will be satisfied, why do they still think of growing up and making gestures? If you want to say something, you will never say so. Do not blame yourself for what you want to do. If you want to show your talents, you will not be angry or angry. All expectations, in order to coexist with reality, can only be fostered in the heart, which becomes persistence. Once people have persistence, whether they are themselves or the people around them will be unhappy. Life is to be revealed on the surface. All you can see is your entire drama. Life is not meant to be what other people see as themselves. It\\\\\\'s just that behind the scenes and in front of the stage coincide. It\\\\\\'s as innocent as it is on the outside. It\\\\\\'s supposed to be what you really are. It was very pleasant to have a story of Mr. Yang Jiang. "We were so eager for the waves of fate that we finally realized that the most beautiful scenery in life was inner calm and calm. We had hoped so much for recognition from the outside world, but in the end we knew that the world was our own and had nothing to do with others. The world meaning here refers to the spiritual world, which is divorced from the real life, so people can not live only in their own world, so living is equivalent to death. Calm and calm is a height of life. It is perfect to keep a few hours of unhappiness every day. Because life is interlaced, others will intrude into your play, and you will live in others\\\\\\'play. Parents, friends, lovers, colleagues and strangers, they are the audience of your life, intertwined in your life, there will be joys and sorrows, there will be people, joys and sorrows, life. Just like how you deal with people, there will always be people who don\\\\\\'t like you. Just like how hard you try to do something, there will still be no gains. Just like how you love someone sadly, he will still be away from your life. You must learn to believe all the misfortunes and learn to recognize all the regrets. Believe in your immaturity, in your bad luck, in your own possession, in all your failures, in someone who doesn\\\\\\'t like you, in someone who doesn\\\\\\'t care about your feelings at all. Every grief in you will be the reason for every happiness in the future. When you pass through all the unbearable things in the world, you will be able to understand all the nobleness. But don\\\\\\'t be surprised, people come and go, some people never say goodbye, some people can\\\\\\'t say goodbye, but life, you have your play, he has his play, do not need persistence. As Haruki Murakami said, "my life is mine, and your life is yours. As long as you know what you\\\\\\'re looking for, you can live your life according to your own wishes, and no one else has anything to do with you." When all intentions are revealed in life, exposed in the daylight, no matter sad or happy, there is no regret in this life. When you walk with thorns, some people pity you; when you run with blood, some envy you; when you recover, others like you. Life goes into drama, and it rises and falls. Everything is just right. Just one day, when you walk in the crowd, your mind settles down for a moment and you find yourself alive. Live your life well, do not love happiness, do not retain sorrow. If you want to say something, you always say that you are strange to each other. You just want to leave a happy memory. When things are not perfect, you can find it in the song of the years.
我旁边的一个老头，半夜没有筹集到钱，一早死了，推了出去。早晨接班的医生叹气地说，先打上药嘛，也不至于这么快就死了呀？人被推了出去。
一早又一个老太太被推了进来，开出去的单子迟迟没有拿回来，大夫们都在那束手无策地等着。没过半小时，大夫发现人已经不行了，被推走了。看着两个人的生命就这样完结了，我倒吸了一口冷气。
原来医院是这个样子，这不是在治病，这是要钱、抢钱啊？医院是治病的地方，没想到病得比我还严重。
二、医院成了某些人图财害命的印钞机。
现存的医疗保险，包括大病保险，只能维护基本医疗。而对我这样的重患者，只能是杯水车薪。治疗的药物多数报销不了，完全靠自费。
住院第三天，我在头两天做了介入溶栓手术以后，突然出现了意想不到的状况，我的血压急聚下降，高压降到了50-60，心律梯波严重失常，院长、主任都来了，实施抢救，打了两针强心剂以后，高压才上到80，一会又下来了。
我在昏迷中听主任和院长说，这个人不行了，通知家属准备吧！第二份病危通知书又发到老伴和儿子手里。老伴和儿子失声痛哭，双双跪在院长面前。这时院长冷静地说，唯一的办法就是找线上人弄到一种进口药，打上能差不多。儿子忙说，请你们帮忙有重谢。
老院长叹了一口气说，这是你家属有钱，不然这个人就没了。儿子马上去银行取了五万块钱现金。等了不到一个小时，医生把我儿子叫了进去。当面拿出了德国进口的针剂，收了五万块钱的线人扬长而去。
我注射了三针后，血压、脉博都正常了，我也苏醒了。医生脸上露出了微笑。第二天一早我被推出了重症监护室。
后来，医生告诉我，每个医院都有线上人，你正当渠道弄不到的药，他们随叫随到。药价是出厂价的十几倍以上不说，一次出场就收两万现金。
这些人就是发这个不义之财，他们挣钱太容易了，医院就是他们的印钞机。
三、医院的帐没法看，更没法问。
每天早晨护士都拿着厚厚的帐单让你看，让你签字。医院是各项手续齐全，看到密密麻麻的用药和检查仪器设备，患者根本看不明白。
你要是问她，马上告诉你找医生。反正为了治病救人，没有什么可讲的。家家医院都是如此。
四、如此紧张的医患关系，使医生说话谨小甚微，不敢说一句过格的话，不承担任何责任。
医院这种体制，医生也没办法，他们每一个治疗方案都争求患者家属的意见，每用一种自费药都要同家属打招呼，争得同意后才能采用。很怕患者及其家属怪罪他们。
病人在眼前，需要急救，他们也不敢越雷池一步。这种医患关系简直让人窒息。
Yesterday cocoon, tomorrow tomorrow. Life is like a play, a joke is like life. Tomorrow is not what we expect. A movie is most afraid of no audience, the most helpless is a unicorn drama. Holding back is always behind the scenes. What people want is the drama at the stage. Still remember Mr. Zhou Xingchi\\\\\\'s words about the chicken mother in the moonlight treasure box from Tang Monk and Monkey King at the beginning of his "Big Talk Journey to the West", "You want to? Monkey King, if you want, you can talk. You don\\\\\\'t say how do I know what you want? Although you look at me sincerely, you still want to tell me what you want. Do you really want it? " Yes, you don\\\\\\'t say how others know you want it. How can I feel your sincerity if you don\\\\\\'t look at me? Moreover, it is not related to relatives. Those who have experienced baptism of time are all fond of naive things. It\\\\\\'s like being happy and angry with children and wishful words on the surface, innocent and innocent as if it were the best praise in the world, making people happy. Since the people around you can be happy, and they will be satisfied, why do they still think of growing up and making gestures? If you want to say something, you will never say so. Do not blame yourself for what you want to do. If you want to show your talents, you will not be angry or angry. All expectations, in order to coexist with reality, can only be fostered in the heart, which becomes persistence. Once people have persistence, whether they are themselves or the people around them will be unhappy. Life is to be revealed on the surface. All you can see is your entire drama. Life is not meant to be what other people see as themselves. It\\\\\\'s just that behind the scenes and in front of the stage coincide. It\\\\\\'s as innocent as it is on the outside. It\\\\\\'s supposed to be what you really are. It was very pleasant to have a story of Mr. Yang Jiang. "We were so eager for the waves of fate that we finally realized that the most beautiful scenery in life was inner calm and calm. We had hoped so much for recognition from the outside world, but in the end we knew that the world was our own and had nothing to do with others. The world meaning here refers to the spiritual world, which is divorced from the real life, so people can not live only in their own world, so living is equivalent to death. Calm and calm is a height of life. It is perfect to keep a few hours of unhappiness every day. Because life is interlaced, others will intrude into your play, and you will live in others\\\\\\'play. Parents, friends, lovers, colleagues and strangers, they are the audience of your life, intertwined in your life, there will be joys and sorrows, there will be people, joys and sorrows, life. Just like how you deal with people, there will always be people who don\\\\\\'t like you. Just like how hard you try to do something, there will still be no gains. Just like how you love someone sadly, he will still be away from your life. You must learn to believe all the misfortunes and learn to recognize all the regrets. Believe in your immaturity, in your bad luck, in your own possession, in all your failures, in someone who doesn\\\\\\'t like you, in someone who doesn\\\\\\'t care about your feelings at all. Every grief in you will be the reason for every happiness in the future. When you pass through all the unbearable things in the world, you will be able to understand all the nobleness. But don\\\\\\'t be surprised, people come and go, some people never say goodbye, some people can\\\\\\'t say goodbye, but life, you have your play, he has his play, do not need persistence. As Haruki Murakami said, "my life is mine, and your life is yours. As long as you know what you\\\\\\'re looking for, you can live your life according to your own wishes, and no one else has anything to do with you." When all intentions are revealed in life, exposed in the daylight, no matter sad or happy, there is no regret in this life. When you walk with thorns, some people pity you; when you run with blood, some envy you; when you recover, others like you. Life goes into drama, and it rises and falls. Everything is just right. Just one day, when you walk in the crowd, your mind settles down for a moment and you find yourself alive. Live your life well, do not love happiness, do not retain sorrow. If you want to say something, you always say that you are strange to each other. You just want to leave a happy memory. When things are not perfect, you can find it in the song of the years.
五、中国知识分子的品质和医德及做人的良心，是医生的主流。
我要出院回家了。为表示对院长一句话，让我拣回了一条命的感谢，孩子用纸包了两万块钱现金，趁一早院长查房时送给他。
只听院长长叹了一口气说:“孩子，你把钱收起来，回去给你父亲买点好吃的吧。你们花了那么多钱，总是拣回了你父亲一条命，不容易啊？你别看这个社会病了，医院病了，可是我们医生没有病”。
这一席话真是让我感概万分。我病了，这个社会更是病了……